I can't believe we have a baby. And to top it of he is the most gorgeous, perfect, best baby ever!!! So before I even start on this post there are a couple of things I want to say. Number 1, I am so excited to write about everything that I am sure there will be mistakes and things said out of order. Just try to make sense of it! Number 2, while I am more happy than I can put into words, my heart is breaking for Kelsey. I really do love her so much and hate that she has to hurt. Please keep praying for her. I CAN NOT imagine at all what she is feeling. And Number 3, just to let everyone know, Lane Matthew is a baby boy that shows that we serve a God who is real and answers prayers. Thank you to all who prayed for us as we went on this journey and for those who don't believe in God, I pray that this will open your eyes!!!
Ok... so here it goes...
I got a text from Kelsey on Monday Nov. 1 saying that she had just had her doctors appointment and was going to be induced tomorrow (Tuesday). We then got a text around 3:30 Tuesday morning saying Kelsey was at the hospital having pain. We got several text from Kelsey's mom over the next few hours letting us know the progress. At 1:52, Tuesday November 2, Lane was born. He weighed 8lbs 4oz. Both Kelsey and Lane were doing great.
We had talked earlier and discussed that Kelsey wanted to have the first day by herself with him. It was hard to wait but worked out great because of this list of things we had to do:
1) my kitchen was torn apart because a few days before my sister and I decided to completely change my kitchen. We sanded, primed, and painted my cabinets, we had Phillip rip out the counters, backsplah, and put a new sink and faucet in; we painted the kitchen, dining room, and foyer; we painted Lanes room; and re-decorated the front bathroom.
2) I had a wedding cake and grooms cake due for Friday. Now not knowing for sure when we would get home I went ahead and made both of them and decorated them that night.
Are you stressed by reading that? I kinda am! Thankfully, both of my sisters stayed til 3:30 in the morning helping finish some things and start new projects (haha).
Here are some pictures of the process and I will post some on the final later...
Ok, so it's Wednesday now and we are going to the hospital. Phillip, me, Mikey, my mom, Kristy, and Kelly all went up there. It was so nice to have them there with us to video tape and take pictures. When we walked into the room Kelsey (who didnt' look like she had just had a baby at all) was standing holding the little bundle of goodness. His hair was in a little mohawk and instantly he was the cutest baby I had ever seen. Now I wish I could say as soon as I saw him I bonded with him. In a way, I did. I loved him so much. But it really wasnt' until we were home with him that I actually bonded. Actually it was the minute I got to sit in the wheelchair and take him out of the hospital is when I had that natural mother/baby bonding. A bond so unconditional. I love him and he is mine. Period.
Anyways, sorry, back to when we first saw him. It was so cool and not at all what I thought it would be. I wasn't sure what to expect but I really thought the whole thing would be very dramatic. But Wednesday night was fun. We laughed and talked and just hung out.
Pictures of Wednesday night:
So now onto Thursday! My sisters and mom went home Wednesday night and also took Mikey. So Phillip and I got there around 10:00 in the morning and we talked for a little while longer. It worked out to where the birthfather and his parents were going to come up to the hospital. He had to sign the papers and then see Lane. We ended up leaving the room for a little while because the nurse had come into to talk to Kelsey about all the discharge papers. When started to head back up and were waiting for an elevator. We almost got into one but we were not sure if it was going up or down. Right before we got on another elevator light came on saying it was going up. So we decided to go into that on. As the doors open, standing in the elevator was Brittany (the social worker) and the birthfather and his parents. It was so cool to see how God worked that out. It was perfect because there wasnt' that awkward bit of time at first. We just started talking right away.
A little side note: The birthfather was adopted by his parents in the same hospital. Crazy, huh? It was cool though because his mom was really nice saying how she was happy for us and knows exactly how we felt. God worked that out awesomely!!!
Here is Lane's birthfather and then all of us together:
So after they left, Kelsey, her mom, and me got to talk alone. It was an incredible talk. We talked about so many different things that I don't really feel I need to share with everyone. But I will say this, after that conversation I felt so much closer to Kelsey and really began to love her like a sister.
We talked for about an hour and then everyone came back in. Phillip and I ended up leaving because it was time for Kelsey to sign the papers. We were not allowed to be there. We went to lunch and Hobby Lobby (favorite store) and then came back. The papers were signed and then it was getting time to leave. Lane had to go to the nursery because Bethany Christian was legally his guardian now. While we were doing the discharge papers, everything seemed to hit Kelsey. She went back into her room. When we returned to the room she was in the bathroom and didnt' want us to see her crying. I hated that. I wanted so badly to go in there and hug her and cry with her. We ended up going to the waiting room and as it turns out Kelsey ended up saying bye to Lane and then going ahead and leaving the hospital before us. Her mom had come in and told us what was going to happen. Kelsey just couldn't handle seeing Lane leaving with someone else. And honestly, I can't blame her.
So after she left we were able to go back to the nursury and wait for the wheelchair to walk us down.
And yes, we took the Geico car! It was free gas and we are trying to pay for an adoption so every penny counts!!!
So there is the story about the hospital visit. I will post again about the first night and first couple of days.
One thing that I think is so neat. Lane has so many people who love him. One of the things I wanted to share about when me and Kelsey had our talk alone, she said she wanted me to know that she wasn't doing this (giving Lane up) to take the easy way out. She said I am doing it with his interest in mind. My response was very quick to remind her that this is in NO way the easy way out and I told her she better not think that and that I definately don't. I tried to encourage her by saying that this is the hardest way out and she needs to know how strong she is for doing this. Not too many people can be as selfless as she was being. All that to say... Lane is so very much loved!!!
Thanks for reading my posts!!! I will try to keep it updated now that he is already 6 days old!
